By Casey Grey
I am writing this on only a few hours of sleep. Although I recognize the importance of sleep and make sure I get 7 to 8 hours of sleep every night, there were other forces at play last night.
As a kid I'm sure you can remember a time when you could not sleep because you were just too excited for the next day to come. The usual things like Christmas, Easter and birthdays would keep me awake however it was not only those events. It was knowing that something fun (or something I perceived as fun) was coming. This could be as simple as knowing I had a baseball game, a friend coming over, family coming over or just a day out with my mom, dad or older siblings.
As adults we tend to stop loosing sleep over excitement and instead loose sleep over things such as anxiety, stress, worry, anger and so on. All things that come back to one thing, fear. Fear that things are not going to turn out the way we want them to.
As kids, we would focus on the positive and as adults we have "learned" to focus on the negative. We have been taught to protect ourselves and watch out for the worst.
I'm happy to say that last night was one of those childish nights for me! I am focused on the good things that WILL happen in the future and I'm excited! I am (re)learning to focus on what serves me instead of what hurts me.
Trust me, I have lost lots of sleep due to emotions that do not serve me (especially as an entrepreneur) but I have learned from those experiences. I have learned that they do not serve me in any way. There has never been anything good that has ever come out of worrying, stressing, feeling anxious or being angry. The only thing I have received is certainty... Certainty that I'm going to feel like shit.
Now I am reconnecting with the child in me. The little person that knows no boundaries. The one who sees only potential. The one who is only limited by his imagination. The one who takes 1 step and then falls... Then 2 steps and falls... Then 3 steps and falls... Until he's running and jumping like he's being doing it for years.
When my son falls I ask, "What do you do when you fall down?"
He replies, "I GET BACK UP!"